My reflection on judgement began a few hours before last Sunday’s webcast. Truly, standing in line at Walmart, as I waited to pay for a coffee maker. I berated myself for shopping there in the first place but knew I had no way to make coffee on Monday morning, it’s close; convenient and reasonable I reasoned. I assumed my best, phony neutral, persona as I waited in line, and waited—and waited. And silently judged everything and person I saw. My mind was on fire. I paid. As I was driving, I judged my thoughts, “What is wrong with you?” “You are incredibly mean and judgemental?”
And my beloved webcast began, at some point the team at MKMMA relayed an assignment for the week. Hmmm. No judgement, no opinions. This will certainly be a challenge, I thought. The more I began to think about not judging, the judgement became louder. Committed, I began to make an honest effort to succeed in my quest to stop my mind weakening practice of judgement.
I have always believed that I am capable of changing any negative or judgemental thoughts, but now I am beginning to receive the tools I need to actually do that. My mind is constantly creating, imagining, and analyzing my surroundings and situation. I am so excited to gain the control of my inner life whenever my thoughts drift in ways that do no serve me well.
I have a great imagination and as shapes and colors have been introduced to me; I have latched on for dear life. It has become extremely important for my heart and soul to control my inner thoughts, and by doing that, change the direction of my life. This is fun for me, entertainment for a restless mind, and I am often amused. A Red Circle symbolizes my PPN Liberty and a Green Triangle, my need for True Health. I have a green triangle sticker on my car, parks and recreation parking in my home town. Red circles are everywhere. One of my favorite contradictions, and I am endlessly fascinated by the contradictions of life, a red circle is always seen on a stop light.I see Liberty every time and smile. Shapes and colors are bountiful. Endless combinations. It is just the beginning for me.